"Maybe this sounds crazy.
My first miscarriage in March, I started bleeding almost right after the baby died...... And so the sac came out intact and we put it in the freezer to bury this summer.
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Now I just miscarried again, last night. (And what a horrible night, by the way. Holy cow.) But this time, the baby died 3-4 weeks ago and, I can imagine he had kind of...well...shrunk/disintegrated/decomposed.
At one point last night, I sat down on the toilet and a BUNCH of large chunks of stuff came out...I'm assuming the baby was among those chunks, but I didn't have the heart to go looking.
But now I have nothing physical from this baby. I really really wanted to bury him outside with his sister. And maybe that sounds dumb? But I don't know what to bury now. I strongly strongly need something. Do you have suggestions? :bawl
Everything I've thought of just doesn't seem right. A bit of the fabric I was going to use to make him some diapers? A small plastic baby (the tiny kind about an inch long) since that's about the size he would have been when he died? (but that won't decompose, it'll still be there 100 years from now).
.....and some creative ideas from other moos
..."Do you have belly pics from pregnancy or ultrasound pics for a scrapbook? The fabric sounds like a good idea, or baby clothes, christening gown, etc. Maybe this is dumb but maybe order a preemie burial gown?"
"To help with my first loss, my fabulous sister got me a heart that functioed as a small herbal heating pad as well as symbol of my little one for Earth Mama, Angel Baby. That is all I have of that baby, and I will always cherish it"
"... If you don't have anything already, maybe you could knit, sew, crochet...a tiny shirt and this is going to sound really weird, but grieve while you are doing it and catch your tears while making the shirt....."
AND BY FAR THE MOST WEIRD IDEA:
"My first thought was burying one of your pads that is catching the flow with a little note on a peice of paper..."
BUT SHE LIKES IT!!!!!!!!!:yeah
"ok, well, the pad idea seemed really crazy at first, but it IS something "from" the baby. I have had another day of bleeding and clot passing, and considered fishing one of the clots out.........."
Ok, we are not talking about stillbirths, induced labor in the third trimester, or even a legitimate pregnancy test or exam at a doctor's office. These moomie wannabees are SO desperate to bear fruit that they do these over the counter ovulation and pregnancy tests one after the other and CONVINCE THEMSELVES that they are pregnant. EVEN IF they are knocked up, we are talking 2,3,4 WEEKS gestation (at best) as the ones in this category haven't even missed a period. THERE ARE NO umbilical cords, "sacs" to freeze, or recognizable baby parts. A gender can NOT be determined. They decide that, "in their hearts" they know it was a boy or girl, they name it, memorialize their "deaths" and would be due dates, birthdays, and according to this one poster, much much worse.
What person in their right minds would put a miscarriage, or more than likely just menstrual product, in the FUCKING FREEZER? WHAT SANE PERSON would bury a Kotex pad in the back yard, or fish out blood clots and God only knows what else, from the toilet or out of the waste paper basket and name it and then BURY it? These people take the term "breeder" to an all new level. The worst part is this is a moomie breeder site with hundreds of THOUSANDS of posts in the "loss of baby" area. Their husbands seem to be going right along with the insanity.
Someone needs to tell the emperor that he is naked.