From the bowels of reddit April 04, 2023 | Registered: 8 months ago Posts: 65 |
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My son is 8. He has a long list of issues I don’t even care to mention. I had him when I was 19, and I believe his lack of development was due to domestic violence. Anyways, I really feel horrible saying this but I do not like being his mom. Every day I wake up and contemplate ending my life just to eliminate the task of raising him. I have completely checked out and I feel like sht bc I can’t even properly love my other child because I’m fckn tired.
He rubs poop every where every day, he has scratched up my entire body, spits in my face, throws things and has caused my other son to need stitches twice from throwing things at him. He’s profoundly deaf, doesn’t communicate, and uses little to no sign language bc he is legally blind as well. I don’t have a support system otherwise I wouldn’t be venting ab this sht on the internet.
I have never had a normal adult life. I can’t even go to dinner because he’ll throw the fckn plate or glass cup across the restaurant. My patience has run short. How can I get rid of him? I’m poor af and don’t have any resources to properly care for him. I live in Texas, is there a state facility? Should I consider moving to have him placed? He has been kicked out of every residential school for behavior, I have taken him to the hospital, I have even hotlined myself on several occasions and no one gives a fuck until something terrible happens.
I can not take the abuse from him anymore! I fear for myself and my other child’s safety. Literally when he comes close I unknowingly jump in fear that he’s about to hurt me again. I’m fckn drained and I don’t want to hear any judgement bc I’m prepared to take my anger out on whoever thinks they’re good enough to judge me without living a day in my life with this boy. What steps do I need to take to have him placed somewhere that can properly care for him?
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I’m going to call CPS and hotline myself, again. Im going to tell them they need to take my son and I am not accepting any other solution. Im ready to relinquish my parental rights to him voluntarily and im okay with the consequences, im just curious if anyone has experience with this and knows the consequences I would face. Im not okay. I dread getting out of the bed bc im tired of this repeated cycle of torture.
I have two kids, one who has special needs. My youngest son (special needs) has to go, I literally can’t take anymore and I have frantically tried to get help with him for the last 2 years. I’m officially at my breaking point, Im afraid im going to hurt him or myself. I lock myself in the room all day to avoid the reality of my life.
My house is a complete Fucking mess bc I have given up. As of today he just rubbed poop every where on top of all of the food and other bullshit he has all over my house. In the last 3 months I’ve probably taken 1 or 2 showers. I know I fucking stink bc I can smell myself, but I just don’t care enough to take care of myself anymore. I have a huge scratch on my face from him diggin his nails in me for no reason at all last week, he bites me, pinches me, spits on me, and throws things at my head. I have so many marks from his abuse I hate even looking at myself. I literally can’t even sleep bc when I hear him coming I jump up out of my sleep in fear that he’s about to hurt me again.
We were in target this past weekend and he threw Clorox cleaner at my head (he has perfect aim, despite everything that he struggles with) and then started self harming ripping his diaper off and attacking me when I tried to stop it causing a huge scene that was so embarrassing, thankfully a few people stepped in and helped me but it’s not fair that this is my life. His fucking selfish dad is aware of what I’m going through, I have been begging him to help me and get his son but he won’t. In fact, he just bought a brand new corvette Monday (28k down payment) and is living his best fucking life in another state. As if that money couldn’t have been used to have his son placed somewhere, or to pick his son up and hire a fucking nanny or something.
My son is 9 now, I have tried for 9 years. I know I still love him bc I break down when I think of him leaving and me possibly never seeing him anymore, but I really don’t like being his mom anymore bc I also get a sense of relief when I think about life without him. He makes me want to fucking die. I have literally thought about taking him to the psych ward in the childrens hospital and taking my other son and running away to another country. I don’t want to get in trouble, so this is why I would rather take the cps route, but if I’ll be in trouble either way I guess it doesn’t matter.
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craftyzits
Woman needs to commit suicide I think cuz she doesn't have any options in a shithole like Texas. She won't get any help. Sadly, the normal kid is FUBAR.
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Yeah, my other son is completely terrified and traumatized by his behavior. He has been through so much with this situation it’s so sad. His brother has thrown things at his head causing him to need stitches, he throws knives (they are put up now), and everything he does to me he does to him. I try to keep them separated as much as I can, but it’s just too much of a safety risk now.
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He pretty much has outsized me. He has the strength of a grown man, no joke. He’s also about 4’5” and I’m only 4’11”.
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touzokuou
Is it just me, or do most violent tards have brute strength? Perhaps because they have less brain capacity, the exert more force than normal and have a higher pain tolerance.
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My son is 8. He has a long list of issues I don’t even care to mention. I had him when I was 19, and I believe his lack of development was due to domestic violence. Anyways, I really feel horrible saying this but I do not like being his mom. Every day I wake up and contemplate ending my life just to eliminate the task of raising him. I have completely checked out and I feel like sht bc I can’t even properly love my other child because I’m fckn tired.
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