This is a most interesting topic! I have always wondered about Trans people and how that works. I consider myself to be a Jane Average type of a person, I do have some strange ways of looking at things at times.
As example - earlier in fact I was thinking of this - if people 'change themselves' - why can't they put you in like a Panther or something? Or, like that GIF of the "Nope Octopus". I want to be that guy! Why can't this be done?
Or - for what could be done - does anyone ever get a sex change just because they want a 'change of pace'?
For myself - if I were a man - I think I would be the same person, except with a dick.
I don't think I have any kind of gender identity? I don't mind being female but I don't 'play to that' or consider it some kind of integral issue to 'me'.
I don't think I have an identity off of any 'outside constructs' either. I will sometimes mention that I am Jewish here, but I am not religious. That usually pops into my head with things to do with Hard Coar Conservatives, because the :crz Far Right and Tin Foil Hat crowd are anti Semitic and this disturbs me but I also get a laugh out of it - that just because of the area of the world your ancestors came from - this pisses people off. How stoopid!
Or maybe because my skin has gotten lighter and I find this kind of weird. My one Aunt too. I have fears about pollution. Erg. Oh God - yeah plenty of people take me as an Iranian - they're getting blasted with big time pollution too! Gah. What's next? We all gonna turn purple?
Yes this is an *actual issue* for me (and relatives) - because we had direct exposure (US).
I'm not going to whinge on about any illness here, I am thinking of it from the standpoint of 'bodily integrity' and like that. Oh and I was recently sick, blasted with all types of weird chemo drugs (several of which have since been yanked off the market) - and ever since that - I don't feel right.
I don't feel sick, but I don't feel right.
I mention that because I was thinking of this book I read, about the environment. I forget the title of it. The Author writes about these things and also did have a small 'farm'. Which he tried to 'be green' with so to speak. And, he decided to *shit outdoors*. Uh, OK, but I guess I can see the point of that.
This guy had been seriously ill too and took the same aforementioned kinds of drugs I did. In his 'litter box' area outdoors - that spot that he crapped on when sick / on these drugs - he said that ground was
completely blighted for 2 years!!!
:goggle
It might've been more. No weeds, nothing. Barren scorched ground.
ERG.
So I have this - the bod is fucked UP. I do not feel right. I am trying to fix myself. I got new vitamins, I was so happy because they were on sale and looked really good, I had high hopes that they'd be a good 'fixer upper'. I opened them and saw - Giant Horse Pills. I can't swallow that. I nearly cried. And I'm not an overemotional person. Oh well, I'll just have to find some smaller ones. Sigh.
And I used to be very in shape, an
Athlete even - I played serious Tennis. Now, I can barely walk a half a block without feeling like I'm going to keel over. Everything just
hurts. The skeletal system - this is what these drugs wreak havoc on. I got it. It scares me. How bad will it get? Will I get MS or RA? (Yes, these are potential side effects too.)
Anyway, this illness gave me 'body integrity' issues, I am trying to fix myself up. Goes for the mind, too - no need to dwell on things, it will not help. (This illness was the result of a pretty grisly accident also, you
don't want to know. And - I've got to keep my mind off of that, also.)
Being a Female: I don't care because I can't change it. Well, I guess I *could*. But who cares? IMO you're 'still you'. Same with racism - who cares? People are people. It's ridiculous.
I have a 'boyish' body - not much T & A happening here. Does this have something to do with how I view myself? I read some article recently, about some 'research' or - ? - along the lines of - larger / broader hipped women are more sexual because 'they know' or the brain knows the hips are wide enough to pass a child. Yeah, I don't know about that. Fairly recent thing discussed in various places, you all probably saw it somewhere.
I have slim hips, I have the type of body that would probably inspire envy in some - tall, long legs, slim hips, 34B chest. Yes I can wear those skinny jeans, I have a pair on right now - neon blue
But men, it seems to me, do not really find my body type attractive. And if you are tall - (I'm around 5,10) - this intimidates men. Put heels on - yeah then I am *really tall* and people look at you like a freak. They like to stare, some will tell you how gorgeous and exotic looking you are, few will really want to talk to you or they seem afraid of you or semi hostile ~
It's a good bod for clothes, and that's about it. I am also very clumsy, which seems to be common among my fellows. It's a long way down there. And the world is built for smaller people.
It seems to me - I'm thinking about what I'm writing here - I mostly think about how I
interact with 'the world'.
I don't think of myself in terms of my gender. I'm worried about falling down the stairs! Oooo
It is a weird thing, too. To be used to being strong and fit - and now I feel like a busted down Senior Citizen. Lord.
My uterus is the least of my issues. And never really was. I always had regular, not too bad on the cramps or PMS, periods. I am now kind of worried about my bowels - if you'd like to hear about that ~
Sex? I do not think much about. I am single. I can't find any good men. And I really don't care at this point. What little sex drive I had - was kilt off by the strange drugs also.
I do have body insecurity also - why shouldn't the guy just get a hooker? Why me? Again, I consider myself a Jane Average type - wouldn't the / any guy rather have the big boobed, big booty'd type like Courtney Stodden or Kim K?
I also have kind of an abrasive personality. I'm grouchy and I yell at people. I am quite cynical and have a dim view of just about everything. That's another perk of having your own biz - your partners feel absolutely free to tell you shut it already!
ALL of my problems could be *solved* - if only I could be the Nope Octopus!
I don't know. Just some errant thoughts. It is most interesting to me to read others' thoughts on these issues.