Warning: Really long rant about work!
I may have went overboard with the crazy here, but I'm super pissed, and needed to vent really bad. Sorry about the length! Also, not sure if this is the right spot for this, so sorry if I posted in the wrong place.
Every time someone decides to quit at my work, I get put on mandatory 10-12 hour shifts, with no fucking notice what so ever! This bullshit will probably continue until they find the 2 replacement servers for 2nd shift. I told my boss multiple times that I no longer wanted to work from 9 in the fucking morning until anywhere from 7 to 10 at night. Yes.... the end of my shift might be 7pm, but if we get busy I get to stay until we slow down, so if my schedule says that I am only working for 10 hours, I will probably work anywhere from 10 to 13 hours, and will be lucky if I am able to even get a 30 minute lunch break during the entire shift.
There are some days that I work 12 hours, and I am too busy to even pee. I'm not exaggerating at all. I have worked so many 12 hours shifts, and had to hold my fucking bladder for the full 12 hours, that I am surprised I haven't battled multiple fucking infections because of this shit. What really pisses me off though, is that, no body even goddamn asks me if I can work these fucking hours! They just put me down, because, you know I am the only chick on 1st shift who is under 30, and REFUSES to shit out a fucking brat loaf!
I really want to volunteer at my local Humane Society, but guess what? I fucking can't! I never know when I will be available! I even asked my boss a month ago if they could work around the possible 2 days (at max) that I could even volunteer, and he pretty much told me no! I wanted to be able to do this after I got off work, rather than on my days off, because it would be easier for me. He told me that I basically had no choice but to do it on my days off, and implied that I would lose my full-time spot if I tried to re-arrange my availability (said in a really roundabout, hinting manner).
Really, the reason I'm so goddamn pissed right now, is that I really needed to get to the bank at the beginning of next week. I won't be able to do that until next Friday, and that's only if the fucks don't put me down to work. They have me working 7 days straight, and the last 3 of them are 10 (more like ?) hour shifts. He was going to work me 8 days straight, and more than likely four 10 (?mark again) hour shifts in a row, with the last one beginning on the morning of 4th of July. For me, shifts like this are way to brutal on my body, and mental state. Serving for that many hours straight really fucks with my head, and I always come home depressed as fuck, and exhausted. I'm extremely introverted, and I just can't mentally handle dealing with people for that many hours in a row, with little to no "quiet break time" without wanting to shank someone with a rusty Hep C infected fork! Shit, even the old bitty's that I work with said that many hours on the floor at our Den of Hell is too many, and would cause any one of them to go crazy too.
Even when they aren't working my fucked up split shifts, I still can't get a break and get a set, decent schedule with normal hours. I never work at the same time. If I work at 8 one day, I will be in at 7, 9, 10, or 11 any day after, for the rest of the week. It fucks with my sleep schedule, and I don't know what time I'm supposed to be there on most days, and that's with a written, memorized schedule!
I've been here for almost 8 years, and I'm sick and tired of getting shit on all of the fucking time! I can't quit right now though, because I will never be able to find a 1st shift job anywhere, and the BF isn't making enough to sustain both of us until I could find something else decent. I feel like I am in a revolving door of hell....
Everyday that I go to work, I envision myself taking off my apron, dropping it on the floor, and telling management to go fuck themselves, right in the middle of my shift. Dear god, I hate waiting tables at my place of unenjoyment, and I swear as soon as I can quit this shit hole of an excuse for a restaurant, I will NEVER do this job again!
Sorry for the craziness, I'm just super pissed off, and ready to murder people. I needed to vent!