Weird dream. Received the McCarthy treatment

I don't normally remember dreams. When I do, I'm usually able to decipher them as an amalgamation of daily events and thoughts.

Last night, I dreamed I went to the doctor for a checkup. Walking into the waiting area, I saw it was filled with grim looking people. Instead of being called into a room where a nurse would go through the usual weight/blood pressure/heart rate routine, each person walked up to a desk at the front of the room and went through those procedures in view of everyone.

I balked and squawked loudly because the amount you weighed was flashed on a digital screen for the whole room to see. I was able to decipher that part quickly: I've been on the weight loss band wagon; pictures Dh took of me on our last camping trip freaked me out. So - sensitive about weight. That's part of the dream.

The rest: weird

The nurse motioned me to follow her and escorted me to a room. Almost immediately, instead of my regular doctor, a faceless (had features that I don't remember) person walked in and plonked a box on a table in front of me. He/she(?) then began to wordlessly lay out copies of every article I've ever read about the childfree life, every book on the subject I've viewed, and a HUGE pile of paper which contained every post I've ever made on CF message boards and the old ASCF newsgroup.

In a slo-mo voice, the person told me that this was proof that I didn't deserve medical benefits and would not be receiving care from the doctor. That was when the dream ended. I woke myself up, being so angry at how I was treated.

Breaking it down? I dunno. Experiencing a sense that, because of my CF orientation, there was condemnation? A fear that in the future I won't have access to benefits that other people get because I didn't spawn? With my upcoming plans to leave the full-time work force in about a year, medical insurance has been a big concern to me.

Definitely disturbing. The dream left me with the feeling that we CFs will be rounded up and made to answer for our choice/orientation. As in "are you now, or do you ever intend to be, a member of a childfree organization?"

Ooof ::shudder::

Sorry you had such a bad dream. Even though it was only a dream, it can have an effect on you. I've had strange dreams too and some are so vivid I remember them years later and they have an impact on me.

It's a manifestation of the prejudices we face as CF people for our choice. In recent years, with pronatalism and mother worship going totally over the top, these prejudices have only gotten worse.

I've had dreams of being shunned too for stupid or no reason, and they bothered me as well. It's pathetic what our world is turning into these days, with fingers pointed at anyone who doesn't meet some norm decided by some faceless person nobody has ever seen. Sadly, the real world is turning into high school.

I haven't had any really weird dreams lately, but I did wake up, feel the need to put saline in my eyes, and then, apparently, poured my bedside bottle of iced-tea directly onto my face.

Yea, I woke up pretty quickly after that. DH still makes fun of me for it.
I have a problem with eating in bed. Not so much eating, but falling asleep WHILE eating.
This is especially messy when chocolate truffles are involved....

I keep waking up in the middle of the night, people are telling me it's allergies. Eh, I don't know. I'm not sneezing. It's more congestion. So I wake up coughing and hacking, go to the bathroom, root through my various cold pills, and take some. Then try to go back to sleep. The meds take time to kick in and whattaya know, I gotta pee again, better get some more tissues - etc.

So last night I was going through this recent routine yet again, went back to bed, was on the verge of falling asleep. I must've been somewhat asleep because I was having a dream -

I was at some sort of 'store' - like a Goodwill or second hand store and whoever I was with was directing me to go look in a corner, I was trying to wind my way past stacks of furniture. All of a sudden I hear a loud voice right in my left ear: EXCUSE ME!

This actually woke me back up! eyes2

What does it mean? Where did this come from? Simple - the stores around here are so god damned CROWDED all the time that you can *barely move*. Every day is Black Friday GAH.

Such things are on my mind too - with all these weird illnesses going around. I am definitely going to be keeping OUT of any stores as much as possible.

I believe that the featureless person represented society as a whole. All of those articles symbolize your strong childfree views. I think that the dream theme is persecution of the childfree. I believe that the dream has to do as you were saying has to do with medical benefits since you were leaving your full time job. Dreams often parallel the waking world.

I hear you about childfree persecution. All of the managers at work are breeders. I have been getting interviewed for promotions and give great interviews, but everybody promoted seems to be a breeder. I know that I can do the job better than they can! I even got two excels on my three year eval! I've never really had a bad eval. What is wrong with me? I'm thinking about jumping ship if I don't get promoted in a year. My promotion to full time across the board doesn't count.