This strange story was entitled, "When is Your Family Complete?", which sounds like a common enough theme for them, but the story takes on some strange twists, screwed up logic, and wreaks of mental illness, IMHO. It was so long that I had to edit out some of it due to length, but it was mostly repetitive stuff anyway. I highlighted in bold some of what struck me as the most odd, within the context in which the article was written. My comments are in parentheses:
When is Your Family Complete?
"After having three babies in less than four years (no twins!) I felt pretty “complete†and was not at all interested in being pregnant again any time soon. I was also in a season of struggle,
fighting depression, failing in my roles as wife and mother, thoughts of suicide, life in a new area far from friends, family, or support systems, overweight and unhealthy.I also had a list of other things that I felt were more important that I couldn’t do while pregnant or dragging infants and small children around all the time. In a way,
I felt like I was compromising my health and wasting my life away by being pregnant and nursing all the time. What about Quality vs. Quantity?
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She is depressed, fat, unhealthy and suicidal, doesn't want any more kids and probably doesn't even want the ones that she already has, yet we ALL know what she will go on to do)
I approached the marriage bed with panic for fear of getting pregnant again.
We tried barrier contraception but it caused me a lot of pain. Other methods were not an option, especially since I was still nursing and hadn’t had my return of cycles yet. In lieu of abstinence I cried out to God for a solution, “Lord! Please help us! What contraception should we use!?â€
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A condom is a barrier method, why would a rubber cause her pain? Why couldn't she use gels or inserts? So, she asks GOD what contraceptive to use? I am sorry, but that's fucked up)
"He answered, “Trust Me.†That was not the answer I wanted. The last time I trusted God I got pregnant right away, and I wasn’t interested in being tricked into that again. I griped back to the Lord, “Aren’t my reasons good enough for You?†But who am I to argue with God? After some deliberation I decided to trust Him again and do nothing to prevent a pregnancy."
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Now THAT makes perfect sense, First, God has answered her and I am HOPING she didn't claim that "the answer" was audible. Then, after "arguing" with God (If only I could have been a fly on the wall), she does NOTHING to prevent a pregnancy. Gee, I wonder what happened next?)
"It sure was worth it to trust the Lord! I celebrated by taking a late Spring excursion to an amusement park to ride roller coasters all day while I still had the chance. I was supposed to get my period that day, but it never came. Two days later I took a home test and found out I was pregnant again.I was so mad! Shaking my fist at the Lord I yelled, "You told me to trust You, and I DID! Now look what You've done! Why do You insist on keeping me down and miserable? You are NOT the God I thought You were!""
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WOW. This is downright bizarre what with the "celebrating" not being knocked up and riding roller coasters all day and what not, and THEN blaming God in an outright tantrum, because she didn't use birth control and got knocked up)
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As evil as it sounds, and as evil as it truly is, deep down inside I was half hoping for a miscarriage. I felt horrible, my life was a mess, I hated everything and everyone, I was seeing a counselor, my circumstances only got worse, and I just wanted to end it all! "
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The truth comes out. They "hope" for miscarriages but wouldn't consider abortion)
" It says in the Bible, "Like arrows in the hands of a warrior so are the children of one's youth. Happy is he who's quiver is full of them." At a ladie's bible study, we were discussing family sizes, ........."
I piped up and said, "Well, if I were out in the woods when suddenly surrounded by a violent grizzly bear four times my size ready to eat me up in one gulp, I would want more than three arrows in my quiver to fight him off. In fact, I'd want as many as I could get!"(
What a LUDICROUS analogy!)
I know many older families who stopped at three children because they decided their family was complete with that many. Three beautiful young adults, all in a row, praising the Lord, standing up against abortion, encouraging youth, and doing mighty things for Jesus. If they hadn't stopped at three there could have been twice, or maybe even three times the amount of children in their family added to the Army of God.
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Hence, their excuse for having 10 kids is to add to God's "army". I didn't realize that GOD would need an "army", afterall he is all knowing, all powerful, and all being)
When the next generation of children rises up to run my country and make decisions on my behalf, and on behalf of my children, grandchildren, and so on—a generation of God-less, self- indulgent, misdirected, unloved, spoiled rotten, traumatized, numb, lazy, video-gaming, immature, fatherless children with little sense of moral obligation—how many God-fearing, Christian young adults would I want to balance it out?Should I contribute only three, stop there, and then carry on with my life of vanity and grasping for the wind? Or should I look beyond my limited, present view, and make an investment into the future of generations that will follow after me?
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She refers to having kyds as an "investment", and I don't understand what that even means. How can people be an "investment"? Also, why is living her life "in vain" and she thinks she is "grasping for wind", just because she "only" has three kyds? Aren't they important, or is it the QUANTITY of kyds that are the measure of her worth? This is just strange to me)
Now I hug my tummy and bless the Lord for this pregnancy. I sure wasn't thanking Him the first four months! But I was obedient. And in the end I'm so thankful I didn't make the mistake of ending it all (not just my life, but the lives of future children).(
Oh for sure. The lives of the unborn "future" kyds she might have had are FAR more important than her own life or having left her LIVING children motherless, for sure)
Did the United States only train up 1,000 soldiers? Or did we not become the strongest military in the world, with hundreds of thousands of able men? As a military family I see where our military is going from an insider's perspective.Even the military is buying in to “Sangerism†by scrapping ships, shutting down military bases, selling off their military housing to private management, and even paying some servicemen to leave to downsize areas that seem too full. All this in the name of “saving money.â€
But the military is birth-controlling and aborting itself into weakness. And so is God's church.(
In four short months, she went from being depressed and suicidal, wanting a miscariage, being overweight and miserable, to giddily hugging her tummy and spouting off a bunch of religious rhetoric about filling her quiver and armies of Christ rising up against the sinful. She also was suddenly giving testimonies to OTHER women. This sounds like she was either brainwashed somehow in the interim, or maybe she suffers from bi-polar or other mental disease or disorder. . At any rate, the woman has some very serious issues, sounds delusional, and is a "drown em' in a bathtub, locked in hot car....." moomie, waiting to happen.. Personally, I honestly believe that she and her childrens' safety and welfare are in grave danger. What do I know though, I am just a mean old childless woman who is filled with hate
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